I've been having celebrating boxing day since 2 days before. Box up not just everything, but also something else.

Reason why I move into hostel are: 1st, it is my final year. 2nd it is because I would like to try staying in a hostel. 3rd is because I will have my internship on the 3rd trimester of my final year which is the last trimester of the final year. 4th is because it is cheaper. 5th is because I do not need to worry about the bills calculation. not anymore!!! enough for all the + - x / trainning and practises that I had. I can't handle money properly, I tried hard to learn but money still getting lesser or either I count it wrongly. I can never become a treasurer. I am serious. Or else, I will be broke. ok now 6th! is because it's really near to the lecture hall that I will not have to walk so far away to campus anymore. Save time, save energy. Rainny days? Not a problem at all! 7th, in hostel, you can download lots of movies:P 8th, access to the library database ( journals and most importantly the past year papers) will be easy. 9th, the bank is just nearby. 10th, the clinic is also nearby, you know... just in case of emergency. 11th, lesser house chores. Don't have to clean to toilet, or sweep/mop the whole living room and kitchen. Lastly is because I can experience the life staying in a hostel during my uni.

The bad things about staying in hostel are: 1st, I have too many things. I'm not sure whether the hostel room can fit in everything or not. 2nd, the hostel bathroom. Well, of course it is not as good as what I have now in condo. 3rd, there's always probability of kehilangan benda. e.g: undergarment, towel, slippers, shoes... anything that you leave outside the room. 4th, spotcheck.

It is not easy to move . ahh chooo!! ahh chooo!! itchy itchy!! dusty dusty!! my place is such a mess right now. Me? exhausted. getting sick. This sunday have to go mission trip somemore. ..aiks.. it's tomorrow.
We are gonna organise a 3 days camp for 60 kids ranging from primary 3 to primary 6. God bless my nose and my body so that I'm able to bless the kids in the camp too!
Tomorrow is my last paper. woohoo!~
I've been sitting here the whole day. Now I really got no mood to study. BMG1034, Corporate Business Ethics. Business ethics while it's hardly to be ethical in the business world. It might be legal but unethical; or ethical but illegal. The ethical relativism is always determined by what one's society says is right or wrong. Sometimes, doing what is morally right according to the society can be conflicting to our own personal interests. hmmm... Follow the holy bible and it will never goes wrong. hehe... Nevermine, I will get over with it ;)

I am going to move into MMU hostel for the next academic year. I wish I could box everything by now. I really have a lot of stuff to box. A LOT! 1 study table, 1 computer table, computer(monitor, cpu, speaker, headphones), 2 printers, 2 book shelves, books, cupboard, towel rack, all my clothes, my shoes, 2 pails, mattress, all the small little things and all... oh oww... Anyway, I'll start boxing up things right after my exam! wheee!!!!
Are my lack of attention or something?

I admit. I can't do anything with my gregariousness. I might leave you alone, sometimes. No, most of the time. But... I still want your attention. Yes YOU.

Woman is just so hard to understand. Complicated. Maybe.. it's just me? So sorry for being self- centered and demanding.
Whee!!! It's exam time!!!
Just had my 3rd paper today. Essay, essay and more essays!!!
Guess i can become a good chef after the finals by "Goreng-ing" all the answers. hehe...

Well, this is the main reason why I have no time to update my blog.

I went to church camp 2 days before the final exam. Daring huh? :P
I am glad that I had so much fun in camp. I wasn't that crazy in camp, cause exam is right around the corner. Being an Ents isn't that bad too. We..... ta..lk.... slo...w....ly.... he... he...hee... =)) We didn't win anything but I think the idea for the bridge was brilliant! Simple and easy. THank you Peter Rowan for giving us such sermons. Yea... I almost fall asleep at some point, cause my body can't stand the tiredness. The fellowship of the faithful, I have loads more to learn. I manage to sit by the beach at night before I leave cherating. Missed the beach so much(even though we were feeding sand flies). Thanks Julesy for the company:) The nice cool breeze, the light house, and the moon!! It was like God's eye. Watching down from the sky. Sometimes, He put on sunglasses. hehe!!! I wanna go to the sea.

I have 3 more papers to go. Saturday, Tuesday and Thursday. Today I got an email from my very good secondary friend who is currently studying in Australia. Didn't expect that email though. :D geez... it makes me happy the whole day. She is busy. I am busy too. We all so busy. Hope she do well in her studies.

Today my de-stresser brought me to dinner. We studied together after the dinner. Nice nice!! :D Love you so much!

Been settling the air ticket booking for my brother. I don't go back home this time. BIG possiblity not going back.

Me wanna go to the sea!

Life can be really tough at times, especially when you are alone. I just don't seem to understand. Why A must happens to this person and B must happen on another person? Why can't B happens to this person and A happens on another person? What do You have in mind Daddy? You've got everything in your hands right? Must we go through all the bad things only then we can know you more? Are there any other way that makes me seek You rather than making it bad for me in order to make me seek You. Well, I mean a not so emotionally smashed kinda way. Oh dear... I don't mean to throw out these. I am just wondering. Ok... let's try this equation. Lord put bad things which make us sad. The purpose is to remind us of His grace, love, and mercy and to go back to Him. When we seek Him, the gap will be smaller. BAD+SAD= closer to God, stronger me. Why must it be that way? Why human tends to forget about God? If we don't then... will the bad things go away from us? Why must we sin? Why is Jesus the only way? Why God the king of universe so good go and die for me on the cross to pay the price that I am suppose to pay? I mean... me, such a tiny little dot on earth, i don't deserve all these. And yet, He DID all for me. God is good. God is always good and I trust that. Daddy, why is life so many stages? Is there anything like:" It is SUPPOSED to be that way! It is supposed to be like this! And you are supposed to feel this way! And when this happens, you are supposed to feel this way and do this."??? There are things that... might not turn out to be the way they supposed to be right? What will Jesus do when He got frustrated? Today, and yesterday too, many people got frustrated and stressed. My very dear boyfriend and friends that I really care. The weather's fault? Yea right... blame the sun. Oh well, somehow all that affects my emotion too. All I can do is to try my best to listen to them, tell them to be strong, to be patient, sayang them a bit... and of course bring them before the Lord in prayers. Please make me a better listener Lord. Life can be really mean isn't it? It goes out of our control at times. When it happens, it has to happen on me, just me. It is the matter of how you walk through it, the being strong thingy, the emotional control, the effort to balance up everything and the courage to take the next step through Christ. One more thing, being able to praise Him in such a time. This is what I think, and I know it's NOT easy. Easy for me to say, but it is far more harder for anyone to do it.

I read back my journal today. A blue little diary. From year 2006 ... back to year 2003. I see how God guide me all the way since I started my Uni in Malacca and now in Cyberjaya, those days when I went astray, and how God bring me back to Him. There were some stupid things that I feel like tear off the page. Those were really silly. I was like "What???!!! that's how I think and feel at that time??? UEKKK!!" haha... nvm.. I will keep the pages in complete one piece there are some good ones though'. I suddenly realize that I am away of home for a few years already. Of course I did go back every semester break... but yah man, I miss home... I went to Sharon's house today for dinner. Really nice to have dinner at a place like home. I wish to serve the college students next time, make them feel like home too! Invite them over to makan, give them vitamins, talk to them, treat them like my children and things like that... geez...

Jesus, Lover of My Soul

Text: Charles Wesley, 1707-1788
Music: Joseph Parry, 1841-1903
Tune: ABERYSTWITH, Meter: 77.77 D


   Jesus, lover of my soul,
let me to thy bosom fly,
while the nearer waters roll,
while the tempest still is high.
Hide me, O my Savior, hide,
till the storm of life is past;
safe into the haven guide;
O receive my soul at last.

2.
Other refuge have I none,
hangs my helpless soul on thee;
leave, ah! leave me not alone,
still support and comfort me.
All my trust on thee is stayed,
all my help from thee I bring;
cover my defenseless head
with the shadow of thy wing.

3.
Thou, O Christ, art all I want,
more than all in thee I find;
raise the fallen, cheer the faint,
heal the sick, and lead the blind.
Just and holy is thy name,
I am all unrighteousness;
false and full of sin I am;
thou art full of truth and grace.

4.
Plenteous grace with thee is found,
grace to cover all my sin;
let the healing streams abound,
make and keep me pure within.
Thou of life the fountain art,
freely let me take of thee;
spring thou up within my heart;
rise to all eternity.

I still remember this hymn that I played in church last time, yeah a
few years back.
This hymn is the very first hymn that I played in my
entire life.
Well, I start to appreciate hymn more when I have not
many chances to sing them.


Bad news and good news: next week is the last time I can give tuition
to Damee--- a 12 year’s old beautiful Korean girl. It's a joy to tutor
her although I have to travel all the way to Ampang. Hopefully she
absorbed everything I taught her.

It's been tough for me last week and it's going to be even tougher
this week, assignments due, reports submissions, presentations, and
even a seminar to held. Indeed I'm trying to fulfill everything and
to attend everything. Guess I’ve been used up 120 percents of my all
150 percents. 150 percents? Yes, I always think that I have more
energy than others and always think that I am capable of doing
everything within a limited time. Activity comes after one another.
NON-STOP. Setting priority, time management, what should come first...
fuhh!! CoffeeS to reward and to give ummph to myself. I don’t
understand, I keep craving for coffee lately, yea… but phyllis, not
to that extend lar!! 2 cups in a shot and you want more?? Apu… and
I still can’t get enough of it! Oh well, I got stressed up when I think
that I’m not capable of finishing everything according to my own
standard. Akai... Fast paced, but I need to be even faster! Still
believing that I can do it. I was really down at some moments, but
God reminded me to trust in Him. Just like this Hymn, “Other refuge
have I none, hangs my helpless soul on thee; leave, ah! leave me not
alone, still support and comfort me. All my trust on thee is stayed,
all my help from thee I bring; cover my defenseless head with the
shadow of thy wing.”
Wonderfully written isn’t it. Despite of the
hectic-ness and tiredness, I’m so banyak banyak blessed by the people
around me. Hmmm… feel so spoilt! : P I just feel so thankful and so glad
I have companions to walk with me and the supports given. Praise the
Lord! I learned to appreciate and be thankful this week. Appreciate all
of 'em, everyone, every moment and everthing. I have more than one
water tap at home, and what? yeh, the pineapple story.
Owh yea! I finally have the gut to drive around this city. Ok lar.. I know
it’s
nothing to be proud of. hehe.. But I’m! a biit?? Kekeke..
Alrite, me have to rest. Ok... me NEED to rest. My sorethroat is getting
worst... Sleep phylli, sleep tight...zzZZzzZZZzzzZ