DEAR Earthlings

my new blog URL is as below:

www.phyllispeaks.tumblr.com


WOOHOO!

This blog is in a mess. Should I dump it and start anew?

My hair starting to fall. It's quite scary to see so much hair coming out when you wash them. But it is a much better side effects than the others coz it doesn't make you sick.

Now that not only dogs hair we gotta vacuum, gotta vacuum human hair as well.

I am alright with hair falling off and having a bald head. How about you?

Do you ever doubt your existance? I always do and I question. But today it became real.

Why were we created in the first place into this sinful world and already have sin in us without us making the choice to come on earth. Then strive to survive but yet through sufferings without giving us a chance then to die in the end? Everyone will die. Every season is a new chapter in life. but at the end it is always death.

Why would You create us into sin and yet said You love us? You said for those who believe in you shall have abundant life but the truth is... it's so much pain.

Why exist? Why create? why me?

⁵"I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. ⁶If anyone does not remain in me, he is like a branch that is thrown away and withers; such branches are picked up, thrown into the fire and burned. ⁷If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given you. ⁸This is to my Father's glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples.

Here comes the time for uncertainty to sink in. It is exciting but yet scary. You never know what is ahead of you and what is to come.

Your mind became another you that speaks all kinds of what if into you. Why are there so much of these frustrations within?

I need grace, I need assurance, I need strength. I need You. Apart from You, I can do nothing.

A night without sleep could cause dehydration.

A fight in your dream could also cause fatigue.

A list of unwanted bombarding emails could cause overly hyperactive brain cells which leads to partial brain damage.

17 days left for me to consider.

I had listed down 11 items on one side and 3 items on another side.

It is pretty clear. Either now or later.